AAAAHHHHH!! What is going on right now!!??
I don’t know about everyone else but this is testing my mind! And my patience. I have a 5 year old at home who, every two seconds, utters the word “MUMMY!” If I’m gone for even a millisecond, it’s “MUMMY where are you?”
However, I try to remind myself that my situation could be worse. I try to be grateful during this shitty time.
Before lock-down, I was walking once or twice a day. I found myself looking forward to it (this is a bloody miracle). I feel better breathing in the fresh air and taking in the beautiful sights of where I live.
I’ve loved not hearing cars driving past. Just silence. Well, as silent as it can be when you’re with the chattiest 5 year old ever. (wonder who she gets that from?)
COVID_19 is something I’m struggling with. I don’t have it, but am struggling with the implications of it.
I'm someone who HATES staying in. I also hate being told what to do.
Being told I can't go on my daily trip to Asda to buy stuff that I don’t need is very testing!
Being so restricted has caused a lot of emotions to surface. Emotions I’m not sure I’m ready to deal with. Unfortunately, I don’t have a choice.
As I said before, I’m trying to be conscious of the good things and remind myself that I’m not alone. When I’m struggling to cope with these emotions, I remind myself that, even though it’s extremely difficult, so many of us are in the same boat.
I love a little self care time. Now more than ever. Going for a really hot bath, coming out and moisturising my whole body and relaxing once I’m done, really helps me!
I lie in the bath and reflect on what's been bothering me. Once I’m done, I like to think my thoughts have been dealt with and are washed down the plug hole. Like I'm releasing them.
It sounds silly, I know. I’m 30, not 5. Each to their own thought!
As I’m typing this, my daughter has just informed me that she can speak dog! This is how my days are going!