It’s April. We’re 4 months into the year. How?
I don’t know about anyone else but I feel like I’m living a life of contradiction just now. I feel like time is dragging on yet the days are flying in.
Whenever I feel like I might actually be enjoying the time I have to go slowly, it’s followed by that panicky feeling of being stuck and aimless.
I’m loving all this time I have to read but I'm struggling to keep focused when I am reading. Like my head is somewhere else.
I can’t wait for this whole thing to end so I can get back to doing life, but I’m loving the peacefulness of living at the farm.
I miss my friends but there’s something affirming about spending time alone.
Only having access to what’s necessary is liberating, but I’m longing for the day I’m back at the hairdresser or getting my nails done.
Part of me loves working from home. The other part absolutely loathes it.
Realising what really matters has been a welcome practice but at the same time, I miss not thinking so deeply about everything and weighing it up against the ‘grand scheme of things’.
I’ve head is utter mush, yet I’m completely settled.
I hope you’re all staying safe and well through this weird time.
Love, Ellen