I write this in a very different place than my last corona diary.
I’ve been trying my best to be mindful and kind to myself and my feelings, allowing myself to think about stuff that I normally find hard. I’m not one who does this very often, maybe ever! So, this is kind of a biggy for me!
I am writing this in peace this week haha! Sienna is fortunately still able to go visit her dad and brothers in this current situation that we are all living in. This is something that is important to her and myself.
There are times when I have random waves of meltdowns. I feel myself being moody and snappy for no apparent reason, which is hard and I get more annoyed by not knowing why. When this happens I take myself away for 5/10 minutes, to give my brain a rest and to just have silence and be alone.
I’ve been doing lots of this to keep myself busy. I’ve been walking so much that every time I put my shoes on the dog thinks it’s walk time. I love walking, but I feel like I get uptight if I don't walk far enough or miss a day. But I feel it’s better to be conscious of it and how it affects me.
I’ve also been doing lots of work in the house. I’m really pleased with how it looks. For me being able to see an improvement helps me BIG TIME. I get great satisfaction out of having a nice home, as at one point in my life I didn't think it would be possible.
We’ve been super lucky with the weather and I don’t know how I’ll feel when it rains. :( However, I will try and be mindful and take time to do nothing (waaaaaaa that's scary!)
I get up everyday, have a shower and put my make up on just as I would on a 'normal' day. This has helped me feel a little better about myself.